If given a chance to change one of my characters, I will willingly let go my being an “impressionist”. By being an impressionist I meant having a negative first impression against someone which I tend to carry against or in favor of that person for forever, so that whatever that person says or does will be construed by my pity self negatively.
I understand we all feel the same way at some point. Let us take this arrogant man whom I heard ignites fire. We haven’t even talked but because of what I heard and what he did to my friend, I started to dislike this person. I never even imagined being with his company. Another person is the charlatan, the know-it-all kind of man. I can not explain but since day one, his aura reverberated pomp which I cannot take. There is also this kid which voice I did not like so that every time he utters a word, I suffer from internal turmoil which myself created. The bossy lady who imposes all her ideas without considering the opinion of others also comes within the list and so on and so forth.
At first I tried to justify such reaction by believing that it is rational, by believing that my impressions are true and by believing that I can not change my impression because it’s my natural human reflex. However, after giving myself a chance to reach out and know the people I hated, I realized that being so much of an impressionist has burdened me.
By some twist of fate, I was able to talk with one of the victims of my impression. As the conversation progressed, I admitted to myself, maybe I was wrong all along. I came to ponder on the fact that people were created differently so that there is a natural tendency for people to treat and react to others differently. A person’s treatment to my friends may differ when it come to me and vice versa. It all boils down to sensitivity and responding to the people around you.
Today I learned to let go of associating an impression to a particular person. I learned to be selfless by considering what the others feel instead of thinking what you feel towards others. I learned to stop expecting a particular response to your deeds because when the response you receive is not commensurate to your expectation frustration fills in. When frustrated, you forget to appreciate the wonders offered by your environment. Instead you become trapped inside a world of frustration that you yourself created.
Today I will have a new perspective. Today I will let go of the monster in me.
Adsum
12.17.2011
10:47 am
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